Mahabharata 1.221.6

न च त्यक्तुमहं शक्ता हृदयं दूयतीव मेकं नु जह्यामहं पुत्रं कमादाय व्रजाम्यहम्

na ca tyaktumahaṃ śaktā hṛdayaṃ dūyatīva mekaṃ nu jahyāmahaṃ putraṃ kamādāya vrajāmyaham

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