Mahabharata 12.139.49

अटन्भैक्षं न विन्दामि यदा युष्माकमालयेतदा बुद्धिः कृता पापे हरिष्यामि श्वजाघनीम्

aṭanbhaikṣaṃ na vindāmi yadā yuṣmākamālayetadā buddhiḥ kṛtā pāpe hariṣyāmi śvajāghanīm

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