Mahabharata 12.41.5

एतदर्थं हि जीवामि कृत्वा ज्ञातिवधं महत्अस्य शुश्रूषणं कार्यं मया नित्यमतन्द्रिणा

etadarthaṃ hi jīvāmi kṛtvā jñātivadhaṃ mahatasya śuśrūṣaṇaṃ kāryaṃ mayā nityamatandriṇā

Our plain-language meaning of this verse is waiting for scholar review.