Mahabharata 14.32.19

नाहमात्मार्थमिच्छामि रूपं ज्योतिश्च चक्षुषातस्मान्मे निर्जितं ज्योतिर्वशे तिष्ठति नित्यदा

nāhamātmārthamicchāmi rūpaṃ jyotiśca cakṣuṣātasmānme nirjitaṃ jyotirvaśe tiṣṭhati nityadā

Our plain-language meaning of this verse is waiting for scholar review.