Mahabharata 3.194.22

वध्यत्वमुपगच्छेतां मम सत्यपराक्रमौएतदिच्छाम्यहं कामं प्राप्तुं लोकहिताय वै

vadhyatvamupagacchetāṃ mama satyaparākramauetadicchāmyahaṃ kāmaṃ prāptuṃ lokahitāya vai

Our plain-language meaning of this verse is waiting for scholar review.