Mahabharata 3.281.90

अहं च संशयं प्राप्तः कृच्छ्रामापदमास्थितःमातापितृभ्यां हि विना नाहं जीवितुमुत्सहे

ahaṃ ca saṃśayaṃ prāptaḥ kṛcchrāmāpadamāsthitaḥmātāpitṛbhyāṃ hi vinā nāhaṃ jīvitumutsahe

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