Mahabharata 3.281.92

नात्मानमनुशोचामि यथाहं पितरं शुभेभर्तारं चाप्यनुगतां मातरं परिदुर्बलाम्

nātmānamanuśocāmi yathāhaṃ pitaraṃ śubhebhartāraṃ cāpyanugatāṃ mātaraṃ paridurbalām

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