Mahabharata 6.46.9

आत्मनो बुद्धिदौर्बल्याद्भीष्ममासाद्य केशववनं यास्यामि गोविन्द श्रेयो मे तत्र जीवितुम्

ātmano buddhidaurbalyādbhīṣmamāsādya keśavavanaṃ yāsyāmi govinda śreyo me tatra jīvitum

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